God Bless You, Jason~Rest In Peace...

25 of May 2010, again, I lost me another family member~ My big Loh ’s family should not lost anyonelse~25 of May 2010, my cousin passed away due to an road accident at Klang. My heart is pain when I looked at his face after the accident. Jason had a nice looking before. I’ m really pity with him when I looked at his face~ How can he passed away when he was only 19??? Why God should treat him like that??? Huh~ I lost 2 Loh ‘ s family members in a year…… How can this be? Huh~ Again last day, my another cousin enter ward again due to unknown sickness…… How can so many things happened in this year??? Hereby, I convey my deepest condolences to my Loh ‘ s family members. Hope that Loh ‘ s family will safe and healthy like before always. God bless us……

New Vision, New Life Without You...

I really sick of love today……I can’t believe that, I am the one who hurt so much……Should I suffer so much because of him? I am wondering, is that all is only my own perception? Am I wrong along the way with him? NO, I don’t think so…He will never know, how is the feeling that he hurt me…Its really hurt this time…Am I really love him so much until I should suffer of that feeling? No, I want him to get away from my mind now…Let me have a new life, and gonna to meet the social…If I’m the one who is misunderstanding with our relationship, what about you???Do you think that, as a normal friend, should you keep on messaging me with the deeply “touching” words???Huh~ then, you are angry with me again, told me that, you never make me as your lover…huh~ damn~ WTH is this? Does all this is call love??? Don’t you think you have the responsibility to make an explanation if you think that, I’ve misunderstanding??? Huh~ No, you never do that… But now, you are just shouting nonsense at me, like, what I’ve done is my fault…WTH is this??? Damn…Well… Its fine…just make it simple… I want to start my new life already, lets God to see, I will success one day… Thanks a lot, you wake me up! Tomorrow sunrise is waiting for me… Tears will help me nothing. The will of me to achieve success is the one will help me. The time for me to suffer in pain is only the short moment, as Chinese always say that: 明天会更好.Yes, you are not my soulmate. Go ahead with my new perception in love and life. God bless me and everyone that read my post, my dear daddy, mummy, bro, teachers and loved friends...

What Will I Be After 10 Years......

I hope that I can involve in forensic before. Perhaps, I watched a lot of CSI, Criminal Minds before. Anyway, I know that I am in which level. Although I am the 2^nd top student in my secondary school, I do know that, it brings nothing to me. Its true……10 A‘s is nothing in others eyes. Many of my friends and senior told me, I’ve to be confident with myself. Yes. You are right. Modern days female should have a great ambition too. I have a great dream too. Anyway, it’s really a dream…….But now, I’ve to be back in reality. I’m not born in silver spoon. As my parents insist want me to take nursing course, I have to give up my dream……I do not afraid to face challenge in the future, but, I’m really afraid that, I’ll make my parents suffer because of financial problem. It’s really too much for me to state here for what I’m trying to say now as I really don’t like typing actually…….haha…….Anyway, cross your finger and wish me for I can get matriculation, so that, I can get back into my dream.

19 句金玉良言。。。

1、如果发短信息给一个人，他一直不回，不要再发了。没

有 这么卑微的等待。

2、如果没有人陪，学着一个人听音乐看书写点心情日记。 这是 个好习惯。

3、如果一个人很难过，找个角落或者在被子里哭一下，不 需要 别人同情可怜，哭过之后一样开心生活。

4、如果一个人开始怠慢你，请你离开他。不懂珍惜你的人 不 要为之不舍，更不必继续付出你的友情或爱情，到头来受伤的是 自己他人不会为之难过。

5、如果可以不抽烟，别抽。如果可以不喝酒，别喝。这是 不 爱惜自己身体的表现，如果只因一些人，那么我们别傻了，爱你 的人不会让你难过的。

6、伤心的时候找个信任的朋友诉说一下，不要一个人默默 承 受，这只会会更添寂寞感与忧伤。

7、不开心的时候白天看看蓝天晚上看看夜色，广阔的天空 自 有属于我们 爱，宁可高傲的发霉不要低调的恋爱。跟自己说我是最好的。 保持一份自信。

8、宁缺毋滥。不要因为寂寞随手抓一个恋人，这对两人都 不公 平，而且太缺乏责任感。找个知己不要是恋人。

9、记住你喜欢的人的生日，包括你的家人，当然，还有自 己。 生日没有人送礼物也无所谓，你可以买精美的礼物，送给妈妈和 爸爸。

10、闲下来的时候,放一段柔情音乐，翻阅几页好书，然 后睡 个懒觉，快哉。心情不好的时候,也可以睡一觉。

11、从现在开始，聪明一点，不要问别人想不想你？爱不 爱 你？若是要想你或者爱你自然会对你说，但是从你的嘴里说出 来，别人会很骄傲和不在乎你。

12、不要太在意一些人太在乎一些事，顺其自然以最佳心 态 面对，因为这世界就是这么不公平往往在最在乎的事物面前我们 最没有价值。

13、不要为了任何人任何事折磨自己。比如不吃饭、哭泣 、 自闭、抑郁，这些都是傻瓜才做的事。当然，偶尔傻一下有必 要，人生不必时时聪明。

14、任何情况下，背后不说他人是非。如果一定要你说， 说 好话。多个朋友是好事，即使不是很要好的，总比因为自己说话 不慎重不思考而多一个敌人好得多。

15、允许偶尔看肥皂剧，但不可成为依赖。允许偶尔披头 散 发，但要注重场合。允许偶尔骂脏话，但只限在老友面前或者独 自一人时，记得说过后要忘掉那些让你难过的事。

16、一定要有几个异性朋友，没有非分之想.就是关键时 候, 帮你出出主意的好友。

17、学会承受痛苦自己调整心态。有些话，适合烂在心里 ， 有些痛苦，适合无声无息的忘记。当经历过，你成长了，自 己知道就好。很多改变，不需要你自己说，别人会看得到。

18、能不和人争吵尽量避免。一个发怒的人是很恐怖的， 会 因控制不了情绪变成疯子。忍耐然后思索问题的根源最后平静心 态解决它 。

19、不管和谁有了矛盾和别扭，解决的时间不要超过24 小 时。否则麻烦会更多。在可以接受的范围内，先道歉。让自己做 做坏人不是件真的坏事

I Know I Will Never Belive You...

I'm sorry to say that, I really want a guy that can give me secure at anytime...I cannot understand that, why it's so hard to believe that I'm the only one in your heart....Anyway, the only thing that you have to know that, my heart is always with you. No matter your heart is with whom now...As long as I love you, as long as I will keep silence for what you did...I do not know whether have you read my blog...but I can tell you that, I'll not die if I do not stay in your heart anymore...If you are serious with me, then I will always appreciate your love to me...